Mommy's Turn

Today was hard....for me, her mom. Stella is doing well. She did have four heart rate drops today, which ultimately means she will still recieve the caffeine shots. This seems to be the norm, especially for babies under 35 weeks and under 5 pounds. The nurse said Stella was doing real good because they see babies that have 18-30 a day, so yes, we are blessed. They upped her formula to 12cc's by tommorow morning, she is a hungry preemie (like her dad...just not a preemie). This is good, the more weight, the less problems. They did put a blue light on her because her jaundice count was a little high. Other than that things are about the same, she seems to be improving. I am so thankful to God for this baby. She is just an angel. I did cry alot today . This is so hard, I took forgranted the day I walked out of the hospital with Sittre Paige. No one wants to see their child suffer and looking at Stella today was overwhelming. I couldn't look at her without tears in my eyes, its hard to be at home without her and then even worse leaving the NICU to come home. I know this is God's plan for our life. I am so thankful that God HAS a plan for our life. Sometimes this life is just hard, so that is how I am going to sum up our life right now. Please continue to pray for the day I can love on my baby. I long for this day. Thank you all.